I created a forum type board and I'm hoping that people will join.

http://d3ath2u.proboards92.com/index.cgi

The board is filled with things to discuss, or just to talk to other people. Seriously, there's even an art section... poetry section.. etc. I don't know.. I just thought it would be awesome.. and I have a total of eight people right now that have joined. I just wish more would do so... 'cause I'd feel special.

I like discussing things... :D

http://www.quagony.ifbit-comic.com/

That's his webcomic, and 'though it only has three strips as of this moment, he'll eventually get it up and running. He has a crazy sense of humor, and stuff..

RAAR... So the strip will definitely be getting better! WOO GO ANDII!!!

I want to cry right now not because I feel bad. NOT because I feel rejected. NOT because anything bad happened at all. I want to cry because I realize just how much I love someone, and because I like him SO much... I for some reason want to cry.

I hung out with my first boyfriend today, and right before he left, I had to put myself out there again, and I asked him if it bothered him that I liked him so fucking much. He said "Of course not," and for some reason I could just feel some change in the atmosphere around us. It was as though he became gentle, and as though he was almost glowing. Maybe it was just my own happy heart, but you know... I think he genuinely does like me in some form or another.

I don't know if we'll ever date again, but he said that if we do it'll be in basically a year, 'cause he starts college. I know he wants to wait 'cause he doesn't want to meet someone in college and feel like he has to hurt me again. I know this, and I respect him and love him more for it. I'll miss him a lot, but he's doing what he's always wanted to do and that's awesome! I hope he's happy, and gets to a point in his life where he doesn't feel like it's meaningless, because he still believes that.

He has hurts, and needs, and he tries to hide them. I know this, and I want him to be happy in any way possible... and 'though he left me neither rejection nor promises, I still am going to hold onto him as at least a dear friend. I'd do anything for that man.. and he LITERALLY IS the reason why I still live today.

We'll see how things go...

... I had fun...
I like pictures (I was a model)... Just thought I'd say that.

Life is strange. I'm weird, I know, but technically I WAS chained to the wall and I won't deny my liking it. Seriously.. there'd be no point in that. I'm a crazy crazy girl. In any case.. modeling can be fun... but I'm not that good at it really.. I just had an awesome photographer friend.

OOOOOooh and.. and... I've already accumulated 20 hours in three days from my new job, and I'll have 32 hours by Sunday. That's RIDICULOUS... wow. And I was scared I'd not be able to pay rent....

I can't wait 'till Tuesday though, 'cause thats' when I start at Spencers... oh yes.. oh yes Spencers... -drool- UDF's alright.. but Spencers is awesome....

I drew it pixel by pixel and I absolutely love it.... -hugs the mouse- It has a huge backstory but no one needs to hear about it 'cause it's just Role Play stuff...

D&D is SO not just for nerds...

...My back hurts... a lot.... I'm thinking that if I had a brace it would hurt less... you know.. 'cause that's what it's for...

Standing for long periods of time hurts... same with sitting for long periods of time. I'm sure people have noticed a lot that I tend to hover after having sat for awhile.... I just can't handle the sitting for too long if my back already hurts a little.

My body is ouched... and I'm hungry.. and tired...
Working at UDF shouldn't do that much to a person's body. haha.

...and I still wonder if I can even handle the stress because already I'm freaking out slightly....

But..but... I'll stay in there as long as I can... 'cause you know... hopefully I can get further than the 2 month mark that I had at Meijer before having a breakdown and ending up in the hospital.... hopefully I'll last longer this time... But there's more involved here than mere cashiering.... lots more...

Isn't it? Woo for ridiculosity! I dunno, I just thought I'd say something about the fact that three days ago I had no job, no phone, and seeming like I was a slacker with nothing going in life. Today? Today I have TWO jobs, an apartment, and a phone! It's insanity! I have no idea how I suddenly acquired TWO, not just one job, but it happened.

In any case, life IS ridiculous.